Under The Sheets

In another lifetime, I want to meet you in a park, or outside a grocery store. I want it raining real hard, and the day as busy as a typical monday, or friday. As I fumble for my car keys, you will accidentally bump into me causing one of my bags to fall. You will apologize. I'll be mad for a few seconds. And then the world stops as we get lost staring at each other. Love at first sight, finally.

In another lifetime, I want you just as tall, with better hair and teeth. I don't want you so thin. I want you lean, with hands bigger than mine.

In another lifetime, I want a you that's a better version of you. I want you with a better life, a family that's not broken, a comfortable house and a nice car. I want a you who's prepared, confident and able. I want a you that knows how to wait, and who won't settle for less.

In another lifetime, I want a you that is real. I want a you who can be a father to our child. I want a you who will never let go. I want a you that loves me so.

Maybe,there won't be another lifetime. And just maybe, there won't be a better you, and me in another you.

After almost two years, my immune system lost its fight. Now I am under the discomfort of sneezing and clogged nose. I really need to get well. A full time mom can not be sick. I don't have the luxury to rest, and be weak. And I can't kiss my little boy as much as I want to. Lord, make me well.

I know now that I have found a day of celebration that is so much better than my birthday. Mothers' day is just so great. Birthdays are celebrated to remember the day we came into the word.. Mothers' day is a celebration of being born again and being changed forever.

To my mom, you are the best. And I am eternally thankful that God gave me you.

To all the mothers I know and love, let us celebrate our day with happiness and so much more.

To my little boy, I love you too. I deserve to have you and you deserve to have me too.

This is the best pre mothers' day treat so far. I am just so happy..and enchanted. God thank you for the divine miracle of motherhood. Thank you Euwy for giving me the chance to become who I am today. You are the reason why I want to be the best. I love you to infinity and beyond.

It's not easy to not care. To ignore. To abandon. To let it just pass. To be without. But we really don't have tomorrow. And today is not possible. We've gone tired chasing chances, hoping for a less ugly story and pretending we haven't hit our ending. I feel a pinch in my heart, a sudden gush of weakness and a hammer pounding my head then and again. This is the only right thing to do. Let me go now.