Haunted
( February 9, 2012 )
9.2.12
The memory of her face lingers. And though I haven't met her or seen her at all, she affects me in all the ugly, crazy ways.
I still imagine her with him..sharing drunken lust after shifts.. smiling and playing around like a real couple..exchanging gifts..kissing randomly.. watching movies together.. waiting on each other..engaging in sweet, forbidden moments..having fun chasing the thrill..feeling guilty and excited..loving two worlds in one beat...stealing something that is mine.
I know he loved her..in drunken and sober ways.. And my fear has grown uncontrollably. I am damaged and he might just come back for her. How the hell can I let him in again?
